Radgirl Boondocks: EvoL

It’s been awhile since I last wrote something about my adventures, and I realized that since it is love month why not try blogging about it. Love is free. You don’t need to pay for your own ride, instead you will enjoy the ride. You don’t need to buy something out of it, instead you will be fulfilled when you say that you have no regrets because you loved . It is pure and not complicated when two people understand each other. I must say that “Life is a gamble.” because of love. And it is for everybody.

I have experienced different kinds of love and I defined it myself by its stages and ages too. This kid and young love, friendship, parent to child love and marriage love makes me define that love is forgiving, understanding, wherein people bind themselves to be good-humored, patient and joyful. It is also saying goodbye to your fondest dreams and saying hello to your nightmares.

I don't know what love really means unless my mom spanks me and tells me how bad I am (when I was a kiddo) . During my teenage years, love made me believe that I am already in love like it is forever. A fairy tale that I thought would never end. But is it actually love? Writing this made me reminisce my college days. Back when my close friends never left me during my heartbroken days. I would have been lost without my friends love. They are the purity in my life, who have given me their shoulder to cry on. And when I need them the most, they were there. It is one of the best kinds of love in the world. I miss my friends.

Fortunately, the family is one of a kind no matter how bad I get or screw up my family still loves me. They are always there in times of my low moments in life. It is meeting real people in your family and they are free to be themselves judging you. Listening is all I have to do that makes me love my family more. The bond I have with them is unbreakable and for that, I adore my parents. Their marriage is my constant reminder that true love exist and that someone is praying for you to be with him or her forever. It is more important to share your own values, beliefs and knowledge in everything despite the differences. Their marriage made me believe that love is immortal despite the hurt and pain that I have been through. In every heartache that I feel, I always say that “My heart is broken, my brain is broken, everything in life is broken.” (haha) but I just woke up with a Bible verse in my head and quote: “My strength is made perfect in weakness.” -2Corinthians 12:9; And it's love. Investing your emotions is not wrong, because love is a gamble. You live and learn. One can say that “You have a stupid heart!” but they are wrong. I guess one can have a stupid heart with your first love or true love but when you learn to love again, it is a priceless feeling knowing that you have learned something from your past experiences, because you have so much love to share. To give.

Now that I am in final 20s love has a deeper meaning for me. When you least expect it, love comes. Time will come that someone will come into your life who will not be scared to face all the challenges with you. Someone who will be proud for who you are, with what you have been through. Someone who sees the beauty of your inner strength, wisdom and will share with you his or her dreams come true. A constant companion for the rest of our lives.